hey- this is a bit sad. I wrote an entry for yesterday and no one commented. oh well. wow, major tired today!!! and darn, Im ment to work on my english paper right now. not in the mood. Ill do it tonight durring the show.

so the show last night went super well. cool- not so much, but everyone loved it! Phil came and that was wonderful. all the girls tease me about him, but it was all good. Bonnie didnt need to comment like she did, but what ever. Donny and Phil met and I think all is good. Phil seemed cool with Donny, and I hope its the same on the flip side. ya- lack of sleep leads to really weird phrases. lol. ok so my hair- totaly ruined. me thinks my mom took my good shampoo so my hair is totaly ruined. I have to go to CVS (not CVC or whatever u call it phil- lol) and get some correcting shampoo tonight. I wish Phil was comming to the show tonight- we have tix I think but... ya. cant have everything you want now can you?

my dad has decided to pull me out of school 3 more days. 2 next week and 1 the week after to do last college visits. grrrrr. maybe Ill convince hik only 2 days. I dont wana go to E-town, too far and Guilford is just as nice... I think. I hate this. why dont they have great schools like E-Town or Guilford in GA??? its not fair!!! Im seriously thinking about Converse (all gals) bc its not too far from home- nice town, good theater, good rooms, honors program wants me and I got $18,000 a year or something like that. so... maybe that $18,000 that my rents arnt paying will go to buy me a blue ford hybrid Escape (must be said with Dory accent). I was looking at the gas milage on my dads 2001 town and country. wow- 17 miles/gallon in the city and 24 mi/gallon on the high way. thats really bad right??? It sounds bad.

they totalty cancled the Chastity talk for today. I love that... this is not fair. but Im sure we'll have the pre-prom talk. those are almost as good.

does GA Tech do study abrod (sp?)?? im so out of it right now... ya... Im sure there were more things I wanted to say here but I cant think so Im gonna go back to Bonnies room and dig through my make up suitcase and see if I can find something to fix my poor hair.

1) How long have you known me?

2) When and where did we meet?

3) What were the first words I said to you, and you said to me?

4) Did I make a good first impression?

5) What was the first thing you heard about me from other people?

6) What, if any, songs remind you of me?

7) Would you consider me a friend?

8) Have you ever had a crush on me?

9) How old do I act?

10) What's my best feature? Physical or otherwise.

11) What's my worst feature? Physical or otherwise.

12) Have you ever wanted me to shut up and leave you alone?

13) Were we ever enemies?

14) Where do you see me 10 years from now?

15) Will you post this on your livejournal so I can answer yours? If no, why?

sorry, found this on a friends LJ and decided to post it. lol. um... Im in free period right now. ya... weird mood, very tired, ya... lets see big news...

BONNIE SPARK KICKED ASA OUT OF WEST SIDE STORY!!!

as of yesterday's rehursal. Im not sure how to take this, but lets just say Im freeking out!!! I duno... asa and pius players, well they have to be together, or or or I duno but its bad.

ok... moving on from that subject bc it upsets me greatly. so Ive gotten into 12 out of 14 schools and I think that if I get into all 14 I should get a car. I know my rents have the money, they just... I duno... I hope I get one for this summer, even if that means getting a job. but Ill have to make sure to have flexible hours and free weekends so I can go to Dalton often. how thats gonna work- I have no idea. but it will . lalalala. doing nothing... kinda working on english paper. they're on the tour show today and Fr Dan askes me 1st period why Im not with them. I wanted to cry and punch him. I said "we all have our problems with Bonnie, and this is mine. she doesnt love me anymore because Im a good-for-nothing senior". ya- def can hear all the kids talking about ASA. its really bad, Im really upset. I hope she gets her head back in place and puts him back.

ya... so easter is the sun and Im going to FL. Ill be leaving late thu and comming back early mon. so mon= finish prom shopping maybe. drag phil along? its after easter so maybe dad will give me the car. it would be fun. I have to get my ears pierced!!! ahhhh!!! Im scared. Im a baby- yes, but Im TERRIFIED of needels. you have no idea.

ok moving on from bad subject. sorry guys... all these bad subjects... we have 4 rehursals left till we start tech dresses and the show. I think I have to host or do something for tue night. that means stealing moms sparkly, slinking oscar dress. ahhh!!! what if it doesnt fit??? I didnt think about that. ok major diet, now.... I have like 3 or 4 weeks to get skinny. so... working out and eating less... this sux!!!

ya... this is getting uber long and borring so Im gonna end it here. later

so we got our grades today. and here are mine:

British Lit: 86

American Govt: 86

PreCalc: 84

Physics: 79.17 and going up!!!

Improv: 100 (well duh!!! its Bonnie)

Religion: 94

so there it is. Ive got a 3.167 GPA which is good, with an 88 over all thing. My physics will go up (he has lots of good labs to grade), and so should english and govt and if math ever makes any sence, math.

so ya... my rents are out of town this weekend so I get the car (dads van) but still yay!! Ive got a good amount of HW for this weekend but rehursal is only sat and its from 9.30 to 3.00 so thats like 6 hours!!! Im sooooo happy. Phil wants me to drive to Tech and see a baseball game, but Im not sure I can. My rents wouldnt be happy and might not let me drive at all. but if he came over sat we could just stay at home and watch a movie and stuff. maybe play some football. Im trying to think of what else there is to do down near me... pools (closed) party (not invited) bars (too young) clubs (enough said... no) food (ya... but its a bit borring) so if you know of any fun stuff over by Phips/Lenox area... tell me!!!!

Im going to Laura;s Lax game tonight and then to the dance concert. Im gonna get all "cute" with Robin bc we both wana look cute.

I really need to go on a diet, cause of prom and for easter (next week) Im going to FL and that means swimsuit!!! shi*!!! grrr. I have to find my coverup and never take it off. and I think Ive lost all my 1 piece suits,. grrrrrr. so... I have no idea what Ill do... and... ya...sorry,,, physics that I dont get

lalalalalalalala..... I got into Elon. yay. not really. I wonder if I get into all 14 schools that I applied to if my rents will buy me a car or something, that would rock!!! Im still waiting for Richmond, and Rohdes (sp?) and I think thats it. no, William and Mary too. but I think thats all of them. Im really not sure. I got into the honors program at Converse (all girl school in South Carolina) but... ya, Richmond is still my 1st choice!!!

I cant wait for college. I will admit, its not gonna be how I always imagined it, but thats ok. Its gonna rock anyways. I dont mind comming home once a month at all... help with Pius Players.... ooooo she wants to not do a spring show at all next year!!! thats a bit mean. cause she has a few really good seniors for next year. but then again, they have all the leads this year so what does it matter to them??? whatever

ok so Im gonna make an attempt at my physics... wish me luck... and Phil- of your reading this, please call me!!! (cell)

ya so I dont have a lot of time, because this period is almost over. I just wanted to say something so people wont be worried and mad that I never update anymore. sorry y'all. when I updated before like every day I had no life so my entries were uber boring. Im mean, really dull. you people remember those times. lol. you used to tell me that they were boring. now my life is hectic and I love it. Its fun to be alive. odd thing to say but its true. so I saw Phil twice this weekend. He came over sat evening and we played football. yes FOOTBALL!!!! lol. I was horrible. I cant catch, throw or tackle. But that’s ok. it was great fun and I got really dirty, something I haven’t done in forever. rolling around in the grass is so much fun, especially(sp?) never mind bell. bye bye
sorry y'all the bell rang and I had to run off to whatever class I had. cant remember. so what was I talking about??? oh ya. Being the kind of person I am, materialistic and preppy and a goody-2-shoes, I dont get to get down and dirty ever, bc that’s just not me. Everyone thinks of me as perfect mom and Ive gotten so used to that "image" that Ive fallen into a rut. well Im discovering just how much fun it is to get out of that rut and into some real life, some fun! no, I haven’t lost my mind, Im just coming into my own.
so rehearsal today. there was a lul and Bonnie said something like "your phone not ringing... hes not calling you? what kind of a boyfriend is that?" and I totally shot back with, "one who has practice right now, just like me, and knows his commitments" that shut her up, but then she went on to laugh about how much time she thinks we spend on the phone together, which is granted, a lot, but when every other girl in the room said they have done the same, she laughed and it was all good. so ya. boya bonnie!! lol
so... ya. Im def a 4 year senior and I wasn’t invited to go on the tour show. that really upset me. I think all the other seniors are going. I know Im not singing, but she could bring me along to keep things organized. that hurt a lot, when I didnt see my name on the list. I wanted to say something, but I didnt. I just sucked it up and bit my thoung- something Im good at doing.
so... wow this weekend. I think wow is the best way to describe it. Fri- I stayed home and watched movies. Sat- rehearsal from 12.30 (SAT) till 6 ish and Phil came over at 6.30 and we played football. wow, it was great!! Im really bad but it gave us an excuse to do something he really likes, and Im not good, but Im gonna learn. I wana be the girlfriend who can be one of the guys as well, and also be the arm decoration. hehe. silly- yes but hey. thats me. so then we ordered Chinese food and watched Vanity Fair. Weird movie- didnt see to much of it bc its so long. he went home really late but it was a really great night!!!
sun I had rehearsal again and I got out in time to go to Life Teen!!! yay!!! we had a good time.
mon- I slept in cause I didnt have school. got my hair done (looks good. Donny approves) and then I went dress shopping! It was fun. I tried on like 20 dresses and found one I love. Im gonna try and order a size smaller, so diet time!!! yuck- oh well. its for a good cause. I wana surprise Phil with the dress so I wont say what it looks like on here. I will say my accessories are gonna match his eyes!!! yaya!!!! then I went over to Tech, and after an interesting walk through west campus (the guys were staring at me like I was a piece of meat- scary), Phil and I hung in Rial and Dusty’s room (thx guys) and then we went to watch the sunset, missed it, and Mary Jo came and we hung out more. then we got dinner, MJ and the video camera (so not funny) and then we left
but we have bible study tom, but MJ and I might skip and go up to tech. MJ is the sweetest gal ever. :hugs MJ:
ok and now my dinner is here, so I must go eat!!!

Yup, so Im still sick. I got like 7.45 hours of sleep last night!!!! yes! score!!! well thats because I hit the non snooz button and went back to bed. so I was almost late for school, but I wasnt so its all good. Ive got 3 quizes tom and the arts mass and assembly and all that stuff tom and maybe (cross fingers) a hair appointment, cause I really need it.

Im worried about Phil. He seems so... stressed isnt the word, but... so pessimistic maybe. I duno. I wish he would look on the sunny side of the lily pad (Honk! the musical- from my favorite song). I spent most of my life looking at how horrible it was and stuff. I was so unhappy and depressed, but in this last few months (before Phil), I realised that that outlook is so not fun. Its almost painful. I think its when Seven and I decided we wernt friends any longer, I realised that I could be all depressed about it and cry for weeks, or I could just move on and keep my chin up. Id tried the first was so many times, and it wasnt fun, so I decided to be happy. and it was the best thing I ever did. I was totaly resolved to be happy. Not to be depressed, and look where it got me?? Im happy now, happier then Ive ever been. I got into Catholic University in DC with a $10,000 scholarship each semester. yay! shame I dont want to go there, but it means (cross fingers and pray) that Richmond will accept me (knock on wood). As much as I dont want to leave Phil and move far away, I think I need to. I need to go somewhere and make it on my own, with mom and dads money of course... lol, but.... I want college to be an experience. I can always come home and he can always come and visit me. he said himself that theres nothing to do on the weekends at Tech. Ive got plenty of skymiles so its all good. and like he said, "if we can survive the distance and the seperation, we can survive anything"

think good thoughts.

TEN Random Things About Me

10. Im in free period
9. I lived in europe for 7 years
8. my room is purple
7. my first kiss was in a theater
6. Im sick
5. my uniform shirt is really itchy
4. I just finished my maths homework
3. I wish the day was over, so I could go home, watch a movie and talk to phil
2. I need to get my hair done asap
1. My persinality is melencholic(sp?)


NINE Places I've Visited
9. DC
8. Belgium
7. Egypt
6. Morocco
5. Thiland (right were tsunami(sp?) hit)
4. Hong Kong
3. France
2. England
1. Germany


EIGHT Things I Want To Do Before I Die
8. graduate from college and have a successful job
7. marry an amazing man and have a family of 2 kids
6. buy a purse that cost more than my computer
5. have a house in the hamptons
4. take a trip around the world
3. get kissed on the efile tower in the rain
2. own my own theater
1. get my ears pierced


SEVEN Ways To Win My Heart
7. make me feel loved
6. hold my hand
5. surprise me with a gift
4. call me
3. let me you love me
2. let me win, but not all the time, just enough to let me think Im good at the game
1. always have faith in me and support things i do.. or try to talk me out of doing really stupid things


SIX Things I Believe In
6. God
5. love
4. fate
3. my family/friends
2. smiles are contagious, so are yawns(sp?)
1. something good comes out of band things in the long run


FIVE Things I'm Afraid Of
5. being alone
4. death
3. never getting married
2. the dark
1. what people really think about me


FOUR of My Favorite Items In My Bedroom
4. my bed
3. my purple chair
2. my book collection
1. all my hair stuff


THREE Things I Do Everyday
3. smile
2. pray
1. breath


TWO Things I Am Trying Not To Do Right Now
2. die, or sneeze
1. fall asleep


ONE Person I Want To Meet Right Now
1. Philip